Conscience talk

“Waiting for him to forgive you is a damn waste of time,” said a man to Liz, who had traveled far and wide in search of things to marvel her and put her appetite for life back.  

We are human. We all make mistakes. If you dread and you said your sorry, then the ball whether to forgive you is no longer in your hands.  You cannot force a person to forgive you and understand. Never can you ask him to just forget and move one. But those things you can ask yourself to do.

Realize that unless you forgive yourself for the wrong choices you made, or the bad words you have uttered, the other person is unlikely to see that you deserve forgiveness. For he sure knows that the best one to tell whether you deserve forgiveness is yourself.

Forgiving yourself only means you are fully aware of your mistakes. You may not do better, or be a better person, but knowing where you fall short of, could be a good start.

When was the last time you had a long cold bath to wake you up? Or when did you clean up the house again? How long has it been, when you last smiled and enjoyed a good old song? Do you still remember the tasty tang of a good tea after a workout? When did you  last work out? 

Recall. Reminisce. Remember the simple things that had once made you really happy.

Think about it, there was no he in the picture then. But you were indeed happy. There is no he in the picture now. Why can you not be?

Remember what your mama would always say. You are beautiful. You deserve most of the love. You are smart enough to carry yourself through. Though, mama’s gone now, her words never did go to the grave with her. She had left them all for you to muster at this time when all that you do is try to live your life for others.   

Forgive yourself. Forgive others for not forgiving you. Free yourself from the burden of self blaming. Take comfort from the thought that he does not hate you, he is heartbroken. Let him heal.

No one else is more divine than God, who had taught us the nobility of forgiving those who have sinned. Be happy now. Let go of the thought of pleasing others. You’ve tried to do your part.